Its with great sadness that I have decided this will be my last blog entry. It use to be a safe place to vent where i found support and encouragement but recently it seems also a place that leaves me open to criticism also. I wish I had the strength to rise above that criticism but I don't. I have no emotional reserves left inside of me to do that.
I think as it is hard for people to understand me it is also hard for me to understand them. I no longer know a world without childhood cancer, this is my life now.
Everyday I know that I may lose my child one day. Everyday I have to live with that thought. Losing my baby. No parent could truly understand that unless they live it and I respect that. But I am not able to truly understand them any longer either.
So for this reason and others I will no longer blog. If I thought I was only read by people who benefit from my entries as well as my self I would continue. But if those entries bring criticism from people and negative emotions to them then this is no longer worthwhile.
For those family members and friends I will keep updating on my Facebook page that you are all a part of. For those that have followed Jaydens journey I am forever grateful. You have all helped me tremendously and I will never forget that support. Please feel free to email me anytime at email@example.com or friend me on facebook at Leisl Males, and Help Jayden Stone page.
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