Tuesday, 30 December 2014

Christmas Day, and days that follow

Woke up bright an early thanks to the eager children in my house. Luke, Jayden and Layla were all awake before six and couldn't wait to see what Santa had bought them.
Best sight in the world was their smiling faces as they opened each present. This year Jayden was very aware of everything and got really into the spirit. Every present he opened came with the words "it's just what I wanted!"
There was only one brief disappointment in his voice when he realised he didn't get the crane he wanted. However he got so many other great things that he soon forgot about that.
Awesome little man. All the kids were happy, and so were we to all be together enjoying this day.
So very grateful!

We are now on our way to Danny's parents house for Christmas lunch.

Three days later......

It's Sunday night and I've just put my little man to bed. He's sound asleep and watching him sleep is truly a blessing. I just love him so very much.
"Today I'm happy but I'm always cautious with happy" is something a woman on Facebook wrote recently, and I can so relate to that.

Two days later.....

It's Tuesday and I'm feeling so emotional today. Finding myself so worried. Thinking about stuff I spend so much time trying to bury within me. So damn scared. My little man is doing well. But he slept in today, way past his normal time and instead of rejoicing in the fact that I got a sleep in, I'm worried sick.
Never stops.
Feel like I need a good cry but my bodies so use to holding it in that it's making it hard. I think I'm scared to start in fear of not being able to stop.

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Tuesday, 16 December 2014

Its been so long since I last post and so much has happened. Many ups and downs, many special moments and many memories made.

So what has been happening? well I think it would be easier to post the last few weeks in photos.

On the 1st of December we put up our tree! the kids loved doing this and so did I.

 The following weekend we went to stay in mandurah for my dads side of the family annual Christmas get together. the kids love this weekend.

 On this weekend Santa visits and heres a phto of Jayden waiting in anticipation for Santas arrival

 And he finally gets to see him and give him a big hug! Very happy little man.
 Spending time with big brother.

 After the weekend we drove to Bunbury to stay at the Ronald Mc donald retreat. beautiful place. Whilst we were at Bunbury we visited the Bunbury wildlife park which was really lovely. Kids loved it here.
 The Dolphin discovery centre, where Luke got to hold a starfish.

 We did some scooting on the skatepark. Something i find so much joy in, watching Jayden scoot. So grateful for everything
 But he spent more time climbing...
 Plenty of park time had by all.
 We went bowling

 And just had a lovely time together.
Since we've been back its been busy busy busy and we are all looking forward to Christmas day.
I am so very grateful that we are all together and hope and pray for many many more Christmases together. A lifetime of Christmases together.

Monday, 1 December 2014

Jayden's been doing well. We had yet another really lovely day with camp quality at adventure world on Saturday which is just awesome. It was so nice to just be with and enjoy my kids and not worry about what's going on within my house.

Camp Quality really is amazing, an organisation that gives families time to themselves that is so desperately needed. That is what we had on Saturday and when we got to go away to Dongara. Jayden loves that. He loves having me to himself and to be with the family. All the kids do. just loved it. really needed it great day Saturday.

My dear cousin is still in hospital and hanging in there. It's always so nice to see him. I'm on my way there now.

I went and saw him yesterday with a cup of coffee and we had a chat. We talked about Jayden again and life in general. He told me his heart bleeds for Jayden, he said it twice and put his hand on his chest as he said it. I could feel the tears well up in my eyes as I knew that He understood. He understands The reality of our lives because he's living it . and as I get up every morning pushing back the fears of the future and the reality of our lives he's living it, and gets it and it hurts.

I'm so very scared. I love my boy so much.

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