Tonight he complained of it again and not long after going to bed he vomited. As I cleaned up his vomit and gave him reassurance everything was OK, internally I was scared out of my mind.
I spend so much energy burying the fears down deep within me that when something like this happens it's like opening a huge bag of emotions and they come flooding out. I can feel myself trying to desperately hold on to the hope that I've been grasping so hard on all these years. I so desperately want that hope to still be there, to always be there. I'm truly so very scared.
I want to write more but I'm numb. Scared. Really terrified.
I hope and pray with all my heart and every inch of my being that everything will be ok. That Jaydens scan will be clear and he will be ok. I hope and pray for that.